I cannot believe the entire month of January is gone already. There were so many things I wanted to blog about and reflect on and just babble about. Alas, the musical ate my life and I've been busy running rehearsal, building sets, and making period accurate hats for the last month.
Just a few days ago, in a fit of emotion, I felt as though my life had slipped out of my control and that I'm going nowhere, etc. etc. cue nervous breakdown.
However, with a few days distance, I've been reflecting and feeling better about everything. I am moving forward professionally in a grad program that I love- and guest lecturing at my alma mater next month! I have the opportunity to work on two musicals this season with great kids who sometimes feel like my own. I am entering contests and preparing to query my first manuscript.
Basically, I remembered that I'm a badass. #sorrynotsorry
In the spirit of honesty, I also recognized a huge shortcoming. I suck at personal relationships. For those of you who don't know, I broke up with my long term boyfriend this summer (for a lot of reasons) and I'm not really over it. Also- and probably interrelated- I'm terrible keeping myself open to people when I get busy and stressed. And I'm busy and stressed a good portion of my life. I literally can't remember the last time I saw my best friend.
So, I said being happy in my own way was my biggest resolution for 2015 without really knowing what that would mean. A month into the year, I'm starting to think I might see an unexpected way to make myself a happier person: to share myself with the people I care about. It sounds like a no brainer but it will probably be rocket science to me.
How is 2015 for you so far?